So its about to be a month since I’ve lived in Towson and its been a hella of a fun month. However, all this weird, odd, misfortunate things have been happening to me. Almost as if I have an “evil eye” on me. I’m waiting for things to turn from negative to positive but till then I’ll just enjoy the ride. Other then from all the random bullshit going on in my life I’ve been a pretty happy girl not gonna lie.
It’s currently my first weekend in Towson without having Dillon around, and that fuckin BLOWS. Its so weird to not have him around sometime. I enjoy his presence till no end, and if it was my choice I would live with him already. I would be the best roommate ever. I would cook for him..sometimes. And care for him, cater to him, I’d be fuckin awesome. So since he’s not here, and I’m not there, I will do what I do normally and just complain to him about how bad I want him around. And how sad it is when he’s not here. I was supposed to wait 4 whole weeks to encounter his lips with mine, but thinking about 28 whole days without him put a feeling in my stomach that I refuse to have. So next weekend I’m going to him and staying with him for the weekend. Pathetic right? When I hear couples are hours away from eachother, yet somehow maintain a relationship. Me? I wouldn’t be able to do it. Not because I would have some kind of urges to be with others, no way.. I just wouldn’t mentally, physically, emotionally be capable of being so far, so long away from the one I love. So I just have to get through 7 more days till I can cuddle and kiss and play.
Other then that its Friday. I can’t drink cause I’m on antibiotics but no worries, I could deal. I just wanna feel better cause I’ve been in so much pain the last week. Hmm.. I’m gonna go to the mall soon with my friends, and yea
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start.
My best friend is leaving for school on Wednesday, and I depart 2 weeks from today. Time is going by so fast. I’m trying to just soak everything in, but before I know it I’m off. Damn. Its so bittersweet. I’m so happy to go, and just start a whole new, exciting, adventurous chapter of my life. But then again, I don’t know how I feel when it comes to leaving the people I care for behind. Like Bre is staying home.. and I just hope she’s going to be good and okay. I’m not even away from her yet and I miss her already. If I could have it my way, that bitch would live with me, and I would be the happiest girl in the world. I know Taylor is going to have the time of her life at Coastal, I’m not even slightly worried for her. Then theres Dillon.. actually.. I’m not even gonna talk about it. I’m just gonna enjoy my last 2 weeks before my new home will be Towson.
I can’t believe in just two days I am graduating. I a huge chapter of my life is coming to a close. I say this often but its quite bittersweet. Sad knowing such a great time of my life is slowly approaching its closure, but my excitement for college is what keeps me smiling. I’m excited to start my life. I know its going to be amazing.
Theres so much I can say about the last four years. I never went through such a change as I did from freshman to senior year. I came in such a clueless girl, and I’m coming out with my own personal opinions, values, emotions, everything. I’m so happy with the changes high school put me through, and I’m so happy with myself.
I’m excited to see what this summer has in store for me, and what adventures and new experiences my friends and I will come in contact with.